The last day of the 'first three months' holiday period is over.
The 'hols' are ending.
And I am hit by hard cruel facts.
I am failing my tests. I ain't catching up with my studies prim and proper.
Einstein once said. Genius is 1% inspiration and 99% prespiration.

He's right. For once, I realise he's right.
I am retaking my Chinese. I can see why Gerald did it. He perspired. I neglected.
Congrats anw Gerald. Watch me get that A in May.

So its a mixed emotion of sadness and fierceness in me now.
I don't wanna fall back no more.
There's so much to this year that I wanna work for.

In Civics, we were told to set our vision and mission.
I thought. All I wanted this year is to score my As for A levels.
But Chinese probably changed the way I thought.
How can I still get my As if I lost 1 subject from the start?
Even if I have to take that subject 4 times in a row to get my A.
I realised. I will do it.
For the sake of who? My parents? Myself?
I don't know. I need motivation to push myself.
I am lacking that motivation. Willpower? That's all I can live on.
I have been living on self-inspiration and pure willpower to pull myself sluggishly through all this years.
I can't go on like this.
This is my last year.
If I don't work hard enough, it might really be my last year of education.

I got my hols planned and decided.
Its time to catch up.

On the other hand.. I suddenly have this passion to try for a win in a photography competition this year. I am gonna try hard. I am really going to try very hard.
If I don't help myself, who will?

I will fight. Mark my word. I will fight.


A view of the road junction of Bishan Street 11 and Bishan Road from my house.
Next time, I will get a more close-up lens.
ISO 100 F/20 30s