its the weekend
but somehow i m working just as hard
i hvent done my gp yet
at least i got the camp proposal done with
waiting for everyone to come online so i can pass it around
6 gp articles...
how did it pile up?
haix....
seems like a lot of work to do den
i still got my pw
i m gonna start on it in a while

i have finally decided on something
i am gonna close down my private blog
i admit i do have one
no wonder my blog entries for the past 2 weeks or so seems more like a report on what i m doing
cos i m writing all my sadness into my private blog
and there's no happiness to talk abt neway
so my entries seem very emotionless

there's a reason y i m working so hard
taking up all these jobs and responsibilities
since i entered jc life
i have been doing a lot of thinking
about myself
about my life
thinking back to the past
all this thinking bothers me and hurts me
i have been putting up a front
appearing to look normal
but pressurizing myself within me
i was nvr happy
and i wanted to stop my thinking
and the best way to do it was to exhaust myself
keep myself so busy i have no time to think
or i might destroy myself within me
and as i m being exhausted
there's external pressure coming in due to my reponsibility
i cant seem to handle anything well
i feel like i m turning to stone
emotionless...
i dun want to live my life for the sake of living it
i wish for a better life...